A Song – Held Safe in His Arms

This past Wednesday, as I was driving and listening to my iPOD, three songs played which I thought spoke so well regarding the state of my emotions and thoughts regarding the abortion experience and with regards to my latest post from Wednesday. 

This first song I’m posting, I Am Safe (sung by Natalie Grant), speaks perfectly of some of my feelings during the post abortive study weeks.  There were many times when I felt so lonely in my pain.  Who could I run to but God?  He was the only one who could fully understand what I was going through and help me through it.  I kept seeking some kind of relief, but there was none to be found except in Him.  I was certainly bleeding deeply within, and my soul was screaming in anguish.  I wanted to run away and hide while facing the intense sorrow.  I felt angry about having to pretend for everyone around me that everything was okay—that it was life as usual.  I detest pretending and all pretense, and life was far from “as usual”.  My soul was bared and rawfully exposed to God.  I knew that the only place where relief could be found would be in laying all in His hands and letting Him deal with my broken heart, my scars, and my shame.

How did you know
That I'm all alone today
Oh I feel so scared
And I want to go away
I bleed so deep underneath
My soul is screaming

I'm not gonna hide
I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars
And show you every mistake
Your love is mending my blisters
And the bruising shame
Here with you
I am safe

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jIHYCv_mTa4

Drowning the tears
Won't make it go away
It's robbing my soul
I'm taking this mask off my face
To discover love
And uncover all it means
To live and breathe

I'm not gonna hide
I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars
And show you every mistake
Your love is mending my blisters
And the bruising shame
Here with you
I am safe

When you uncover

I discover I am not afraid
But when we're hiding

We end up fighting
To be safe

I'm not gonna hide
I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars
And show you every mistake
Your love is mending my blisters
And my bruising shame

Here with you
I am safe

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