A Song - Here I Am

The third theme song I want to write about is “Here I Am”.  Through this song, God reassured me over and over again that He would be The Great Healer for my pain.  He whispered His truth that He would take my broken heart and put all the pieces back together again, stronger than ever before.  He reassured me that even though during the time of reflection and facing my past the pain seemed unbearable and inescapable, He would surely bring healing.  All things are healed with God and time.

Do you need someone you can really trust?  Is there someone that can truly take your loneliness away?  Can someone be found who will carry you through the most difficult or painful moments of life?

A Song - Grace Flows Down

The second theme song God gave me during the time of the post-abortive study was another song I had already known for some time.  But during the study weeks and the focused reflection of the past on losing Grace Noel, it took on a much deeper significance than just being a pretty song about God’s grace.  From now on, I will always know this song as Grace Noel’s song.  Using the circumstances of my life and this song, God has brought me to a whole new level of appreciation and understanding of the depths of His amazing and boundless grace that covers us through Christ Jesus. 

“For Christ, while we are still infirm, still in accord with the era, for the sake of the irreverent, died.   For hardly for the sake of a just man will anyone be dying: for, for the sake of a good man, perhaps someone may even be daring to die, yet God is commending this love of His to us, seeing that, while we are still sinners, Christ died for our sakes.  Much rather, then, being now justified in His blood, we shall be saved from indignation, through Him. For if, being enemies, we were conciliated to God through the death of His Son, much rather, being conciliated, we shall be saved in His life.”  (Romans 5:6-10)

A Song - Footprints in the Sand

God often uses music to minister to my soul and spirit.  He deeply touches my heart with song and speaks to me through it.  I’ve always taken to heart the Scripture that says He sings over His people.

“Yahweh, your Elohim, is in your midst; The Masterful One, He shall save.  He shall be elated over you with rejoicing; He shall renew you in His love; He shall exult over you with jubilant song.” (Zepheniah 3:17) 

Time and time again, during the ups and downs of life, God has sung over me and to me.  He has brought songs to speak to me and assure me of His presence and work in my life.  He has given me the perfect songs at the perfect time that say, “I’m right here, I know exactly what you are going through, and I promise you my love and my comfort.”  In the midst of the post-abortive study and the heart ache that it surfaced, He sung to me three particular songs.  I will share them in this and following posts. 

My Story - The Post Abortive Study, Part II

August 31, 2009

…This breaks my heart in the loss that I feel.  The emptiness I have that is being revealed about a child I can never have or bring back while I’m on this earth.  I believe a day will come when I will know my child face to face…but for now I’m left with aching loss and emptiness.  It’s like the Matthew 2:18 verse:

“Screams of anguish come from Ramah,

weeping unrestrained;

Rachel weeping for her children, uncomforted,

for they are dead.”  (TLB)

My own version goes like this:

“Screams of anguish and great sorrow

are buried deep within my heart,

weeping unrestrained.

[…] is weeping for her child, Grace Noel,

and comfort is hard to find

because Grace Noel is dead.”

How awful it sounds.  How awful the truth sounds.